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oh what i would give <3
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MICHELLE MARIN,
You’re not doing so good right now. From what I’ve been told..you got in a horrible car accident and just not doing so well. Ana was kind enough to let me know..i got off the phone with her a hour ago…she sounded devastated as I’m sure a handful of people are. I’m taking this pretty hard. We haven’t had a real conversation in months but this still crushes me. So i just got off the phone with Dani. He OF COURSE sounds very hurt by it.
Here’s the thing…..I know your going to be okay. I KNOW IT! But waiting for you to be okay is whats going to get to all of us.
I want to go visit you but im scared. I haven’t seen you in months and to see you like that….idk. Idk how i would deal with it. I’m going to try though. I’m gonna suck it up and go but please forgive me if it takes me some time okay? Cause I do love you and am really scared. I’m having mixed emotions right now…I’m damn crushed by this but then I look at your pictures on Facebook and it makes me smile but then BAM! All sad again. I miss you. Come home to all of us.
Have I ever told you that i just adore that picture up there? Super cute stuff! :)
That picture up there ^^^ is by one of my best friends Daniel Aguilar
&& well it just fit.
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I’m happy again.
I added those cheesy but loveable city and colour lyrics to that picture cause it makes sense. For years now I’ve wanted to find that again, happiness, in another person. Before this I forced myself to care again. I wanted to know how it felt again but I did it all wrong and hurt someone in the process of it, I’m sorry. This time i just let it happen and of course it was for a friend. I’m not over here trying to preach that I’m all “really Really inlove” and “have never felt this way before”. It’s all crap. its gaaaaaay! I’m not looking for “the one” or to be inlove again…all i want is to be able to give a honest smile, to miss someone again, to get nervous, blush by their touch. I don’t know where this is going or if its going to last but that’s because for once I’m not worrying about that. I’m where I want to be and thats all that matters right now.
I’m not trying to over exaggerate or be all mushy and annoying…its just late and im finding myself thinking of her soooo if by any chance you read this babe…which i doubt you will….don’t flatter yourself! hahahahaha
but on the real, thank you for the smiles.
Just read my old post.
I must say….mentally, I’m in a better place.
